Expecting The Same Results

I am beginning to think that I am crazy and that there is no logic in my thinking.  I have a routine and when it comes to food there are safe foods.  By safe foods I am talking about foods that I know taste good and that leave me feeling satisfied and not fat.  So for that past 5 days I had the same Luna protein bar, Chocolate Peppermint Stick.  The first few times I really enjoyed this bar but today was not one of those days.  It actually really ruined my mood which then ruined other peoples moods.  I hate when this happens and it happens all the time.  You think after this happening all the time I would learn my lesson and would eat something different everyday but no, I continue to do the same thing.  I don't know what it is going to take for me to follow through and not eat the same things all the time but I really need to start taking the steps to facing my fears of trying new things.  Tomorrow I will try a new flavor of Luna bars which I had started doing but go stuck on the peppermint stick.  Tomorrow Lemon Zest!!!

Morning Showers

Who doesn't love to pee in the shower?  Especially when it is that morning pee that you can feel in the roots of your teeth.  My sisters cant understand why I do this and they think that it is really gross but I say it is a great way to save water.  By not flushing the toilet in the morning but rather just peeing in the shower you are doing mother nature a favor.  The water is running and I am making suds so why is it gross?  The water rinses it down along with my delicious smelling body wash and shampoo.  The only thing that is a little off putting is that my pee smells like vitamins in the morning and the warm water exacerbates that smell.  I would rather smell one of my own farts in the morning then sour pee but it sure does feel good.  So I say pee away in the shower!!!

Freshly Ground Heaven

I love peanut butter, I just love it so much and I am not talking your average brand of peanut butter slop like Jiff and Skippy.  I'm talking about natural peanut butter freshly ground with nothing added. 

I could eat this kind of peanut butter by the spoonfuls, I sometimes want to cover my whole body in it and lick myself clean.  The smell, the gritty texture, and taste is so orgasmic and no other peanut butter stands a chance with me.  At Whole Foods Market they have one of these machines and it calls my name first thing as I walk in the front door.  I covet this machine and get so mad when I see other people use it.  I feel as though no one else should be allowed to use this machine but me.  I have control issues if you couldn't tell. 

I often will act like a crazy person singing to myself when I am in use of the machine so people will give me the space that I need and leave the area to me and the machine.  I will often see kids mess around with the machine and I can't do anything but stand and watch in horror.  After they leave I will run to the machine and coddle it saying words of comfort.  I will take photos next time I am there of my baby's daddy.  I slather it on toast, crackers, peanut butter granola bars that don't have enough peanut butter in them, you name it.  I am having a withdrawal right now seeing as I am all out.  So off to Whole Foods Tomorrow to stock up and maybe this time I will grind all the peanuts so no one else can have any.  Selfish?  Yes when it comes to the freshly ground peanut butter.